Friday, 22 February 2019


An hour this morning with the most excellent sonographer you could ever hope to work with, thank you Julie.

The results could not be worse.
Despite all her bloods being within normal range, there is a massive nodular “bunch of grapes” tumour, the size of a small grapefruit, up against her colon.  Secondaries in spleen, possibly kidney also, although her liver seemed clear.  There was no point carrying on to the lungs.

We have an appointment for John to visit on Monday after his morning surgery. If that sounds quick and brutal it is because Daisy's quality of life is far, far more important than a few extra days and she is going to fade fast. I have seen too many dogs drag on in pain and discomfort because the owners are too bloody selfish to do the right thing.  Her needs override ours.

Thinking, talking, analysing, we believe Daisy was generally OK until about Christmas, certainly when she had a checkup last September John did not detect a tumour, so (a) this bastard lump is growing incredibly fast and (b) she's not been unwell for very long.  Both John and Julie have assured me that this was always going to be inoperable, and finding it any earlier would not have changed the outcome.  I'm completely in shock that a tumour could grow so large in a relatively slim dog, but not be discernible unless you search really hard:  just rubbing her tummy or stroking her like I do all the time doesn't reveal anything.

Darling Girl has painkillers to relieve the discomfort which this mass must be causing.  It was hard not to cry when she came into the garden with me earlier and had a slow little run about, played with her most favourite destroyed rugby ball, and stood in the sun taking in the scent of the warm Spring air.

We will have a quiet weekend at home, pottering in the garden, enjoying the promised sunshine.  She is currently not feeling bad enough stop trying to scrounge biscuits and treats at every opportunity.

Needless to say, the 'scrounging' is more successful than it has ever been.


  1. Jayne, I'm so so sorry to read this. I've been checking your blog every half hour through the day, waiting for an update and hoping it would be better news than this, now I'm crying as I type this. Daisy has had a wonderful life with you and 'M', give her all the love, cuddles and treats you can over the weekend and give her a gentle hug from me and the girls too. Please know that I'm thinking of you and sending massive hugs through the blogosphere - I just wish I could do it in person :(

  2. My heart is in my throat. I am so very, very sorry.

    But you have the right view. Oh yes. When people keep pets on and on, because they themselves can *not* stand to part with the pet! It is ... fill in a bad word.

    You are showing love, love, love, by this. Only love.

    In hopes that this knowledge, will make it a tiny bit easier, to go through this. Painless for her. Very, very, very painful, for the 2 of you.

    Hugs, all round.....

  3. Oh poor girl, how quickly these things can happen, thank goodness she won't suffer pain.
    It will be a hard weekend

  4. I've just been catching up on your blog. I'm so very sorry to hear about Daisy!

  5. I'm so sorry Jayne. I had hoped so very, very much that it would be something treatable. Daisy's time spent with you has been what most dogs could only dream of and you show this more than ever, with your selfless decision.
    Much love to you. X

  6. I can't write anthing as I can't see through the tears. Sorry. Huggles.

  7. I'm so sorry Jayne, I'd hoped that this mass could have been treatable. It's going to be a hard weekend for you and M but I know you're doing the right thing in having your vet visit your home. Daisy will go knowing nothing but your love for her right to the end. It's the kindest thing you can do for her, let her go peacefully. I'll be thinking of you on Monday. Love to you and peace to Daisy xx

  8. I've been thinking of you all day and hoping for a positive outcome. I'm so very very sorry. It's such a shock when it happens so fast, but you've put Daisy first since you were lucky enough to find each other and you're putting her first again now. Sending you hugs and strength xx

  9. I am so very sorry to hear this. Having met Daisy I know how very special she is. I’m just so sorry that there was no miracle

  10. Such sad news, She has had the best life with you. Sending love and thoughts xx

  11. So sorry Jayne, but you know you are doing the right thing for Daisy.

  12. I'm so sorry to read this Jayne. Sending {{{hugs}}}

  13. Oh, dear lord. I'm so sorry. Was truly hoping for a better outcome. These are the days we all know may come and now to deal with it. My biggest hugs to Miss Daisy and to you and Management.

  14. Oh my, I'm late to all this ... that gorgeous face. She loved you so much, and you loved her right back ♥️


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